Don’t be sad for what will never be

Oh you know...a little of this, some of that.

alabaster911@yahoo.com — Mon, 14 Jul 2008 15:03:14 GMT

So since I last posted...I went to Colorado for a Rogers family reunion.
Regretfully, I didn't take very many pictures. I don't know why I always do that. I'll take my camera when I go somewhere cool, but then forget to take lots of pictures.
Anyways, here are the ones I got.
a waterfall

This is the same waterfall but I zoomed out and got the river in which we were fishing. This is also where I was attacked by fire ants.

Some mountains in the distance

Some of my cousins.

It was an awesome trip. Colorado is beautiful and I also got to see lots of people I haven't seen in 3-4 years.

Currently I am working with a nutritionist and losing some weight. I only wish I could have lost a little bit more so I could have impressed everyone at the reunion...oh well. School starts in a little over a month. I've got my registration date, but its July 22, so I have not been able to sign up for classes yet. However, I have been thinking about what to take and I think I am gonna take a pretty full load. Possibly 6 classes, maybe more...we'll see.

Other than that...dang, I dunno, I've been reading alot I guess. But there's plenty more crap I have that still needs to be looked at.

Global Warming

alabaster911@yahoo.com — Sun, 15 Jun 2008 22:11:42 GMT

[Al Gore]lol[/Al Gore]

I present...

alabaster911@yahoo.com — Sat, 07 Jun 2008 07:59:45 GMT

Mamoru cat

oh yeah

alabaster911@yahoo.com — Thu, 22 May 2008 09:58:49 GMT

cruising down the highway
no cars ahead or behind
rolling
20 minute guitar solos

nothing beats it

back home

alabaster911@yahoo.com — Thu, 01 May 2008 08:55:28 GMT

Well, I am moved in back at home now but I still have all my shit to unpack and organize.

Woopadeedoo.

Don’t be sad for what will never be

alabaster911@yahoo.com — Sun, 23 Mar 2008 05:11:22 GMT

I thought I'd wait a couple days and see if she posted first, but since she didn't I guess I'll go ahead and let everyone know.
Christine and I broke up. Honestly I don't really know why...I mean I have some ideas, but if this is anything like the last time I got dumped I'll probably never find out, or it will take me a while to figure it out on my own.
Anyways, so as to not come away from this sounding like a hurt depressed little emo kid, unless I already have, that's all I'm going to say. We are no longer together, and I apologize to all those from the old Green Day board who I had promised to invite to the wedding.

an update

alabaster911@yahoo.com — Thu, 13 Mar 2008 11:06:36 GMT

so, what's going on in my world?
School - Just got through midterms. I am feeling real confident about my Political Science class. The midterm today was the first major assignment for the class, there haven't been any quizzes or anything. I've been taking really good notes and everything, so I feel real good about that class.
Sociology though, I'm not so sure. I know I got a C on the first quiz, and I don't think I got better than a C on the midterm and probably worse. I dunno...I studied, I just think that class is totally boring so maybe my disinterest in the subject makes me do worse...I don't know. I may just drop that class and try again next semester when I am more focused.
Things are still kinda up in the air in my life. I started looking for another job, but now all the sudden I'm taking an unexpected trip to Texas with my dad for spring break/Easter. So I suppose I'll resume my job search when I return. This trip should be good for me though. I'm thinking its just gonna be me, my dad, and my grandma down there the whole time. I doubt I'll have decent internet access, so I plan on doing a lot of reading and hopefully some decent writing in too. If I finish anything decent, I'll post it up here and see what you all think. I'm also going to be taking my digital camera and video camera...so when I get back I'll post pictures and maybe some of the video if I get anything good.
Its probably gonna suck for a while once I get back though...money is starting to get kinda tight, so I may have to see if my parents will let me borrow some money if I don't find a job pretty soon after I get back.
Anyways, that's what's going on with me.

predictions

alabaster911@yahoo.com — Sun, 24 Feb 2008 10:53:41 GMT

Below is the list of the nominations for the 80th Academy Awards, scheduled to air in about 14 hours (5pm PT/8pm ET). My predictions will be seen in bold.
This is the full list of awards so you're welcome to copy it or take some of it and make your own predictions. =)

Best Picture

* Atonement
* Juno
* Michael Clayton
* No Country for Old Men
* There Will Be Blood

Best Director

* Paul Thomas Anderson - There Will Be Blood
* Joel Coen and Ethan Coen - No Country for Old Men
* Tony Gilroy - Michael Clayton
* Jason Reitman - Juno
* Julian Schnabel - The Diving Bell and the Butterfly

Best Actor

* George Clooney - Michael Clayton
* Daniel Day-Lewis - There Will Be Blood
* Johnny Depp - Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street
* Tommy Lee Jones - In the Valley of Elah
* Viggo Mortensen - Eastern Promises

Best Actress

* Cate Blanchett - Elizabeth: The Golden Age
* Julie Christie - Away from Her
* Marion Cotillard - La Vie en Rose (La môme)
* Laura Linney - The Savages
* Ellen Page - Juno

Best Supporting Actor

* Casey Affleck - The Assassination of Jesse James by the Coward Robert Ford
* Javier Bardem - No Country for Old Men
* Philip Seymour Hoffman - Charlie Wilson's War
* Hal Holbrook - Into the Wild
* Tom Wilkinson - Michael Clayton

Best Supporting Actress

* Cate Blanchett - I'm Not There
* Ruby Dee - American Gangster
* Saoirse Ronan - Atonement
* Amy Ryan - Gone Baby Gone
* Tilda Swinton - Michael Clayton

Best Original Screenplay

* Juno - Diablo Cody
* Lars and the Real Girl - Nancy Oliver
* Michael Clayton - Tony Gilroy
* Ratatouille - Brad Bird
* The Savages - Tamara Jenkins

Best Adapted Screenplay

* Atonement - Christopher Hampton, from Atonement, novel by Ian McEwan
* Away from Her - Sarah Polley, from "The Bear Came over the Mountain", short story by Alice Munro
* The Diving Bell and the Butterfly - Ronald Harwood, from Le scaphandre et le papillon, memoir by Jean-Dominique Bauby
* No Country for Old Men - Joel and Ethan Coen, from No Country for Old Men, novel by Cormac McCarthy
* There Will Be Blood - Paul Thomas Anderson, from Oil!, novel by Upton Sinclair

Best Animated Feature

* Persepolis
* Ratatouille
* Surf's Up

Best Animated Short

* I Met the Walrus
* Madame Tutli-Putli
* Even Pigeons Go To Heaven
* My Love
* Peter and the Wolf

Best Art Direction

* Arthur Max and Beth Rubino - American Gangster
* Sarah Greenwood and Katie Spencer - Atonement
* Dennis Gassner and Anna Pinnock - The Golden Compass
* Dante Ferretti and Francesca Lo Schiavo - Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street
* Jack Fisk and Jim Erickson - There Will Be Blood

Best Cinematography

* Roger Deakins - The Assassination of Jesse James by the Coward Robert Ford
* Seamus McGarvey - Atonement
* Janusz Kaminski - The Diving Bell and the Butterfly
* Roger Deakins - No Country for Old Men
* Robert Elswit - There Will Be Blood

Best Costume Design

* Albert Wolsky - Across the Universe
* Jacqueline Durran - Atonement
* Alexandra Byrne - Elizabeth: The Golden Age
* Marit Allen - La Vie en Rose
* Colleen Atwood - Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street

Best Documentary Feature

* No End in Sight
* Operation Homecoming: Writing the Wartime Experience
* Sicko
* Taxi to the Dark Side
* War/Dance

Best Documentary Short

* Freeheld
* La Corona
* Salim Baba
* Sari's Mother

Best Film Editing

* Christopher Rouse - The Bourne Ultimatum
* Juliette Welfling - The Diving Bell and the Butterfly
* Jay Cassidy - Into the Wild
* Roderick Jaynes - No Country for Old Men
* Dylan Tichenor - There Will Be Blood

Best Foreign Language Film

* Beaufort (Israel) in Hebrew
* The Counterfeiters (Austria) in German
* Katyń (Poland) in Polish
* Mongol (Kazakhstan) in Mongolian
* 12 (Russia) in Russian

Best Live Action Short

* At Night
* The Substitute
* The Mozart of Pickpockets
* Tanghi Argentini
* The Tonto Woman

Best Makeup

* Didier Lavergne and Jan Archibald - La Vie en Rose
* Rick Baker and Kazuhiro Tsuji - Norbit
* Ve Neill and Martin Samuel - Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End

Best Original Score

* Dario Marianelli - Atonement
* Alberto Iglesias - The Kite Runner
* James Newton Howard - Michael Clayton
* Michael Giacchino - Ratatouille
* Marco Beltrami - 3:10 to Yuma

Best Original Song

* Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova - "Falling Slowly" from Once
* Alan Menken and Stephen Schwartz - "Happy Working Song" from Enchanted
* Alan Menken and Stephen Schwartz - "So Close" from Enchanted
* Alan Menken and Stephen Schwartz - "That's How You Know" from Enchanted
* Jamal Joseph, Charles Mack and Tevin Thomas - "Raise It Up" from August Rush

Best Sound Editing

* Karen Baker Landers and Per Hallberg - The Bourne Ultimatum
* Skip Lievsay - No Country for Old Men
* Randy Thom and Michael Silvers - Ratatouille
* Matthew Wood - There Will Be Blood
* Ethan van Der Ryn and Mike Hopkins - Transformers

Best Sound Mixing

* Scott Millan, David Parker, and Kirk Francis - The Bourne Ultimatum
* Skip Lievsay, Craig Berkey, Greg Orloff, and Peter Kurland - No Country for Old Men
* Randy Thom, Michael Semanick, and Doc Kane - Ratatouille
* Paul Massey, David Giammarco, and Jim Steube - 3:10 to Yuma
* Kevin O'Connell, Greg P. Russell, and Peter J. Devlin - Transformers

Best Visual Effects

* The Golden Compass
* Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End
* Transformers

The Beatles and Bob Dylan

alabaster911@yahoo.com — Sun, 24 Feb 2008 10:35:56 GMT

are amazing. All musicians owe them everything.

My own personal Academy Award predictions are coming up soon.

movie thing

alabaster911@yahoo.com — Wed, 20 Feb 2008 06:16:01 GMT

1. Pick 15 of your favorite movies.
2. Go to IMDB and find a quote from each movie.
3. Post them here for everyone to guess.
4. Strike it out when someone guesses correctly, and put who guessed it and the movie.
5. NO GOOGLING/using IMDB search or other search functions.

1. "I have here a very old letter, written to a Mrs. Bixby in Boston. (reading)'Dear Madam: I have been shown in the files of the War Department a statement of the Adjutant-General of Massachusetts that you are the mother of five sons who have died gloriously on the field of battle. I feel how weak and fruitless must be any words of mine which should attempt to beguile you from the grief of a loss so overwhelming. But I cannot refrain from tendering to you the consolation that may be found in the thanks of the Republic they died to save. I pray that our heavenly Father may assuage the anguish of your bereavement, and leave you only the cherished memory of the loved and lost, and the solemn pride that must be yours to have laid so costly a sacrifice upon the altar of freedom. Yours very sincerely and respectfully, Abraham Lincoln.' That boy is alive. We are gonna send somebody to find him. And we are gonna get him the Hell... outta there."

2. "Darling, we haven't had a hit documentary in 9 years. Let's not fuck with Larry Amin."

~~3. "Mr. Hammond, the phones are working."~~

4. "Oh, yes, a big cat! My salvation depends upon it!"

5. "He's not going to say fuck stick in front of the children, is he?"

6. "Tony, you've killed for us in the past, and we've always been satisfied, which is why it's very hard for me to come down here today. One of my men was killed today in your territory, and the chinks tell me the killer was of the... Italian persuasion. Now, wait, there's more. You'll love this. Not two hours later, a little twelve-year-old girl comes to my building, armed to the teeth with the sole intention of sending me straight to the morgue. And guess who comes to get her? The very same Italian hit man."

7. "And I'm caught right in the middle - torn between my loyalty to the boss and my desire to piss with the lights on."

8. "God damn it, that's not all! Because if one of those things gets down here then that will be all! Then all this - this bullshit that you think is so important, you can just kiss all that goodbye!"

9. "No I will not make out with you. Did ya hear that? This girl wants to make out with me in the middle of class. You got Chlorophyll Man up there talking about God knows what and all she can talk about is making out with me. I'm here to learn, everybody, not to make out with you. Go on with the chlorophyll."

10. "It's true, you are a good woman. Then again, you may be the antichrist."

11. "Boy, you got rights... and lefts. Ups and downs and middles. So what? You don't get to instruct anything around here! This is not North Carolina, not South Carolina, nor Kentucky! This is the sovereign state of Mississippi's proceedings. Wipe that smirk off your face! Dr. Wigand's deposition will be part of this record! And I'm gonna take my witness' testimony whether the hell you like it or not!"

12. "I don't know, Jim. There's obviously something wrong with him. He's taken off his shoes and one of his socks and... actually, I think he's crying."

13. "I've hired you to help me start a war. It's a prestigious line of work, with a long and glorious tradition."

14. "Her name is not Sticks! She's Elora Dannen, the future empress of Tir Asleen and the last thing she's gonna want is a hairy chest!"

15. "Okay guys, one more thing, this summer when you're being inundated with all this American bicentennial Fourth Of July brouhaha, don't forget what you're celebrating, and that's the fact that a bunch of slave-owning, aristocratic, white males didn't want to pay their taxes! Have a good summer!"

dreamy

alabaster911@yahoo.com — Tue, 12 Feb 2008 11:12:23 GMT

I really want to visit the Cook Islands.

Epiphany

alabaster911@yahoo.com — Sat, 26 Jan 2008 11:30:40 GMT

Epiphany
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3 a (1): a usually sudden manifestation or perception of the essential nature or meaning of something (2): an intuitive grasp of reality through something (as an event) usually simple and striking (3): an illuminating discovery, realization, or disclosure

I had one tonight. Tonight is exactly what I needed. Spent the evening with family and came home and finished my vmix shift...had a few whiskey and cokes, smoked a bit of weed, and finally around 12:40 or so...even though I wasn't really tired, I decided to turn my lights off and get in bed. I turned my music off and turned the radio to Coast to Coast and left it at a reasonable level. I laid there trying to get in a comfortable position to stabilize my neck which I tweaked the night before in my sleep. As I let the dark room wash over me I began to think about my life...the past few months, the troubles I had been having and now the new direction things seem to be going in. See...well, let me explain.
I had been employed by Barnes and Noble for almost 4 years. It was a good job...a great job. I love books and I loved the people I worked with and even though I love to complain, the bad customers were outnumbered by the good ones and the good experiences I had there. I started off back in 2004 in desperate need of a job and they took me on as a part time employee. After working there for a while and proving my worth I began to show interest in expanding to other areas of the store other than just shelving and cashiering. So I started to help out the receiver in the back, and wound up working back there a few nights a week. Then he left and the new receiver was Martin...we'd become great friends and I still helped him out back there and would fill in for him on days when he was sick or on vacation. Then I was offered a position as a lead bookseller working in the magazine department.
I was real nervous at first, but decided to go for it. I would be working full time and there was a raise in pay as well. It was shortly before this time that I had met Kyla and she introduced me to vmix and eventually I took on a part time position there. So I was working vmix on the weekends and also had a full time job. So I moved out of my house and into an apartment with my roomate and good friend, Robert.
So I had been working the magazine position about a year when things started to change in the company. People wearing suits in the corporate office started making RETARDED decisions about how to run the individual stores. Work became a hassle because it seemed like I was being given more work to do and less time to do it in, meanwhile being stripped of important responsibilities and started feeling more like a salesman selling memberships rather than someone who knows alot about books or magazines.
So work was really starting to suck, and honestly probably starting in summer things between me and Christine were going downhill. So my personal life really started to affect my work performance. I began showing up late alot and calling in sick on days I really wasn't. Then one day my mom tells me about a trip her company was taking to Hawaii and that if I wanted to go it would be all expenses paid. This is back in September/October so once I decided I wanted to go I went to the manager Michelle and she told me it was ok. Even though the trip was in December busy holiday season, I could still go because I let her know early enough and they could hire some extra part time help to fill in.
Great, so things started looking up a little. I was excited about the trip and possibly seeing Christine at Christmas so maybe work would get better. Then it happened. Out manager Michelle left the company and we got a new manager, Nikki. She used to be the assistant manager when I first worked at that store, and actually she's the one who decided to hire me back in 2004...so even though she's really kind of a bitch and people were not looking forward to her coming back, I thought it would be ok and that I sort of owe her since she hired me way back then.
But things did not get better. I was not in charge of the magazines anymore, and in fact I wasn't even considered a "lead" anymore, yet there were still certain things at work I had to do which I felt weren't my business. Then one day I mentioned to Nikki about needing some time off for my trip and she told me I couldn't go. I was really ticked off and at first said ok I won't go. But then that wasn't too good because my position on the trip had already been paid for. So I talked with Nikki and tried to find what my options were. She was pretty firm about not letting me take the time off, so basically my options were to either stay with B&N and not go on the trip, or quit and go on the trip and then eventually come back and look for a different job when i got home.
So I told Nikki I needed a day ro so to think about it so I went home and thought alot. I really wanted to go on the trip, but also wanted to remain employed. However I was really tired of B&N and even some of the people there were starting to bug me. So all in all I decided I would just quit, and go on this trip and have a nice break.
Then something else happened, which I won't mention, but it really sideswiped me. That issue has since been resolved...but at the time I just wanted to get away. Originally I was going to go to Hawaii and come back and try to get a job right away. But this caused me to change my mind about that...I was going to go to Hawaii and then come back here and just veg out for a while. How long? I don't know...
So I went to hawaii and came back looking forward to the holidays. I had enrolled to take some classes at the community college I went to a couple years ago. After the holidays and lots of rest I began to look at my financial situation. Even though I had quit B&N on December 6 I had taken on alot of extra vmix shifts over the holidays and earned quite a bit of money. But since I had terminated my employment with B&N I no longer had cheap medical coverage...there was the option to still retain coverage but just pay ALOT more for it each month. So that's what I decided to do, and I actually have yet to send the first payment off...don't worry, its not due until Feb 10. I also recently cashed in my 401k plan I had with B&N which I got about $1900 so that was a good boost to my coffers.
So I took in everything and looked at it and figured I could survive without a job for about 3-4 months. Cool! So yeah, basically since I got back from Hawaii...I haven't done squat. I've had enough money to sustain all my bills but have also learned to start being very frugal. I'm still getting extra shifts at vmix, so money is still not an issue as long as I am not wasting it on crap.
Part of my reason for signing back up in school is that I wanted to pursue an actual career...not just work retail all my life. So...quitting B&N really allowed me to start thinking about what I really wanted to do
with my life. I met with a counselor at the school and he advised me on some classes to retake to get my gpa up and I picked a computer programming major. In all my time of doing nothing...I started reading alot and becoming interested again in computer programming and web development. I bought some books on the C language and have been messing with that, in preparation for programming classes later on. I plan on learning C and eventually moving on to C#, C++, Perl, PHP, Java, etc in my spare time. All the while going to school to learn the same stuff and eventually get a degree and then start looking for a real job.
So then tonight I start thinking...all this free time is great and everything...but honestly, I get pretty fucking bored sometimes. And boredom often leads to me going out and spending money on something I don't need like a movie, or computer stuff, or whatever...and that's not good with my current financial situation.
Yeah school is going to take up some of that...I only signed up for two classes, so I'll still have alot. And I know that EVENTUALLY I have to get a job...but its not imperitive at the moment.
Then I had a revelation...WHY did I leave B&N? Yes, in a way I was given an ultimatum...but did I REALLY hate the job that much? The answer is no...I just needed a break. Before starting to slack off there I had been working alot of hours and yeah work was overwhelming some days. So I started thinking tonight...what if I went back and tried to get my job back? That would be cool...I'd still work vmix, be in school, and still work about 20 hours a week maybe, get my health coverage back and make enough money to pay my rent and stuff.
However...I realize that the circumstances over my leaving were not exactly the best in existance. Yes, I left angry. I was angry at my manager for not letting me take time to go on that trip BUT...I don't think I burnt any bridges. I think I am still on good terms with anyone who is left at the store. One manager in particular, Steven, we're really good friends and have had drinks together and I've even been to a couple parties with people from work involved.
So here's my idea...I meet with Steven and just talk to him about how things have been going. I tell him that things have been really good with me...how this break has been really good and I feel really good about my life. Which is 100% true...my relationship with my family is good, my relationship with Christine is good and she'll be coming here to visit in May. I'm excited about school and the time off gave me an opportunity to get really interested in an education/career path over the next few years. But now its time to be realistic and realize I can't keep on doing nothing and still expect to be able to pay rent.
So I tell him how great I've been doing and then ask him if it would be worth my while to talk to Nikki about any positions available or if I should just fill out an application. I would let him and/or Nikki know that I'm not looking for any special favors, I just want to make sure that my application would have a fair chance at being looked at like anyone else's. I want to make sure nobody feels badly about me and would resent hiring me back on part time. And if everything seems cool, I really wouldn't mind going back to work for B&N. I'd still be working at vmix and going to school, so its not like I would have to work 5 days a week.
And if not, I spend a couple more weeks being lazy, and then get serious about finding a job somewhere else.

If you read all of that...what do you think? Do you think its worth it for me to try and go back to work for B&N part time while I go to school?

oh. x2

alabaster911@yahoo.com — Mon, 21 Jan 2008 23:34:03 GMT

Because we never really know each other as well as we think, in response to this post I'd like you to ask a question. Anything about which you are curious, anything you feel you ought to know about me. Silly, serious, personal, fannish. Ask away. Then, if you want, copy this to your own journal, and see what people don't know about you.

alabaster911@yahoo.com — Mon, 14 Jan 2008 07:01:49 GMT

So the holidays were actually a huge disappointment...a theme which seems to be making itself more prevalent in my life these days. Everything in my life in the last 2 months has completely turned around. But then there are some positive things coming up...school being one of them. I only signed up for 2 classes this upcoming semester, but I am actually really excited about them. And if I can stick to my guns and do well, I plan on taking a full load in the fall.
Since I got back from Hawaii, I pretty much haven't done anything. I'm not working at B&N anymore, and its actually really cool. I've been picking up alot of extra shifts at Vmix for extra money, and I don't really plan on looking for a new part time job until late in February or March. So needless to say I've had alot of free time on my hands, which has its ups and downs. I have been reading alot and listening to lots of good music...but then other times I just feel so bored and sometimes depressed.
I spent yesterday reading Matt's new zine, which he sent to me by mail. Very cool stuff - if you didn't get one, hit him up and maybe he can send one to you if he has any left.
I really don't have much else to say, I'll probably go to bed soon. Yay for the Chargers winning today, that was some game.
Keep in touch folks.

alabaster911@yahoo.com — Wed, 26 Dec 2007 23:21:05 GMT

So I got some pretty cool stuff for Christmas. My mom and/or dad must have both gotten some sort of fat christmas bonus. I got a bunch of gift cards, and some CD's and DVD's. Anyways, what did you get?

1. How old will you be in 8 months?
still 26 =(

2. Do you think you'll be married by then?
no

3. Was yesterday better than today?
Yes, yesterday was Christmas Day, so it was nice.

4. What did your last text message say?
Oh yeah. nice

5. Who was the last person to text you?
Andy

6. Do you prefer to call or text?
Call

7. Do you have any pets?
Casper the bird, and Ocho the dog.

8. What were you doing at 12 am last night?
getting very sleepy

9. Do you like carrots?
sort of

10. When is the last time you saw your mom?
yesterday

11. Have you kissed someone in the last 2 weeks?
nope =/

12. How many houses have you lived in?
3 houses (I think), 1 apartment, 2 dorms

13. How many city/towns have you lived in?
2

14. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
my slippers

15. Are you a social person?
sometimes, depends on my mood

16. What was the last thing you ate?
soup

17. What is your favorite color?
black

18. What are you doing for your next birthday?
I have no idea.

19. What is your favorite TV show?
Jeopardy

20. What grade did you make in Algebra?
A or B I’m sure

21. Do you like coffee?
not really

23. Who is your best friend?
Right now, maybe Robert. I’m not sure =/

24. What are you listening to?
Los Natas

25. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
I toss and turn a lot, but I think I usually wind up closer to the left side of the bed if no one else is there.

26. Do you know how to play poker?
sort of

27. What are you thinking about right now?
I’d rather not be working right now.

29. Do you have anything bothering you?
yes, several things. Money, no job, girlfriend problems, school coming up, etc.

30. Do you smile often?
no

31. When was the last time you cried?
a few nights ago I think

32. Have you ever had a life-threatening injury?
no

33. Have you ever been in an ambulance?
no

34. Do you prefer an ocean or pool?
pool

35. Why is your relationship status the way it is?
I don’t know.

37. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
music

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1. If I looked in your backpack, what would I find?
random stuff right now

2. Do you go to the bathroom with the door open or closed?
open if there’s no one else here

3. Are your underwear and socks folded in your drawers, or just thrown in?
folded, kind of

4. Sleep on your back or stomach?
side/back

5. Are you a cuddler?
Yeah, sure I guess.

6. What would I find if I looked under your bed?
a storage box, dust, some blankets, and a box with all the letters Christine has sent me.

7. Something that happened today that made you angry?
too many videos being uploaded to vmix when im gone for like 5 minutes, whereas I was sitting there for 2 hours before and nothing showed up.

8. What were you doing before this survey?
eating

9. What will you do after this survey?
look for CD’s to buy on Target.com

10. Marriage or living together?
eventually marriage, I suppose

11. What are you wearing right now?
black shirt, green board shorts

13. Whats your label?
awesome

14. Do you talk about your feelings or hide them?
I like to talk to myself about them.

15. Is there something you regret and wish you could take back?
many many things

16. First thing you do when you wake up?
find something to drink

17. Last person you told you love them?
Christine, I called her on Christmas

20. Last argument you got into?
I don’t remember

21. Do you tend to rip the paper off water bottles?
no

22. What is one thing you love to do with your best friend?
drink

23. When you shut off your alarm clock, do you tend to fall asleep again?
not usually, I have to be really tired to do that

24. If you were given the chance to take care of a monkey for a weekend, would you?
maybe

25. What is the current advertisement on the top of the screen?
uhhh, no ads

26. What are you looking forward to in the next few months?
Christine coming to visit (hopefully), starting school again in January.

27. When will you turn 50?
2031, almost there! I can’t wait!

28. Ticklish?
some places

29. Where do you wish you were right now?
on a road trip or something

30. What song are you currently listening to?
La Ciudad De Brahman

31. Have you ever passed out from drinking?
a couple times

32. If you caught your significant other cheating on you what would you do?
talk to them and find out what’s going on

33. What time did you wake up this morning?
8:05 am

34. Do you have any cousins?
a million

35. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
my mom

38. Where do you plan on living when you grow up?
somewhere with some more rain and thunderstorms would be nice. But San Diego would also be good too, as long as I had a good job.

39. What was your last dream?
something about spiders I think

41. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
Depends on the circumstances.

43.Who's your best friend?
I already answered this

44. Do you own a car?
yes

45.Are you in a complicated relationship?
yeah

46.Have you ever tripped someone?
yes

47.Name one thing that is always on your mind.
music

48.Are you thinking about somebody right now?
yes

50.Do you like your hair?
no

51.Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
I don’t think so.

52.Full House or Brady Bunch?
Full House

53.Do you have any scars?
I don’t think you can see them anymore

54. Relationships or one night stands?
relationships

55.Who was the last person that made you cry?
I don’t remember

56.Ever wish upon a star?
yes

57. Where is your dad right now?
at home

58.When was the last time you talked to one of your siblings?
yesterday

59. Have you ever kissed someone thats name starts with a T?
no

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1. Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed?
probably, we were at the airport

2. When you have a drink, do you stop if you're walking to drink it?
no

3. Do you believe that if you want something bad enough you'll get it?
yeah, if you work for it, not just sit around and do nothing.

4. Have you ever kissed someone in a vehicle?
yeah, but not like major making out or anything

5. Have you ever snuck out of your house?
no

6. Kill or Be killed?
kill

7. Break someones heart or have your heart broken?
have mine broken, I’m used to it =/

8. What did you do today?
woke up, logged into work, went to Kylah’s to watch the animals for a bit, came back here and had some lunch.

9. Do you like someone right this second?
yes

10. Would you ever get a tattoo?
yes

11. What was the last thing you ate?
soup

12. Are you a morning person or a night person?
night

13. Do you snore?
yeah, I think so

14. Do you know anyone who has gotten an abortion?
nope

15. What does your last text message say?
Oh yeah. nice

16. Do you like to spend time with people?
sometimes

17. Are you hungry?
no

18. Are you a forgiving person?
yeah, usually

19. When was the last time you did the dishes?
a few days ago

20. Are you talking to anyone while doing this?
no

21. Do you want a relationship right now?
I’m in one…I just wish it were better, or that I could be closer. I don’t know =/

22. What are you about to do?
go back to Kylah’s house to let the dog out and pee

23. Have you ever thought someone died, when they really didn't?
yes

24. If you had a power, what would it be?
invisibility

25. Your name plus "ness"?
Rayness

26. Three feelings at the moment.
full, tired, blah

27. Done anything you regret so far in life?
tons of shit

28. Are you listening to anything?
Los Natas

29. Where are you right now?
my apartment

30. Do you have a cell phone?
yes

31. What are you scared of?
rejection

32. Who was your first love?
Cara

33. Last movie you watched?
I Am Legend

34. Last song you sang out loud?
Ballroom Blitz

35. Are you thinking of someone right now?
yeah

36. Who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
My dad

37. Last thing you downloaded on your computer?
Pink Floyd - The Division Bell

38. Have you changed that much this year?
yeah, a little bit I think

41. Who was the last person to text message you?
Andy

42. Where was the last place you went besides where you are?
Kylah’s house

43. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celeb?
yeah, a couple times

44. Do you speak any other language?
no

45. Do you dress for style or comfort?
comfort

46. Name someone with the same b-day as you?
Milla Javovich

47. Ever had a drunken night in Mexico?
no, Mexico sucks ass

48. What's the craziest thing you've done?
I’m not too crazy

49. What's your most favorite color?
black

50. What is your favorite Michael Jackson song?
not sure

51. What are you looking forward to this summer?
hopefully visiting Christine, Rogers family reunion, and maybe a youth group reunion

52. Last time you smiled?
I don’t know

53. If you could choose any career what would you do?
I think it would be cool to work for the last.fm site

54. If you could have anything in the world, what would you want?
A good job, closer to my love.

HAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

alabaster911@yahoo.com — Mon, 24 Dec 2007 04:50:24 GMT

So its almost Christmas time.
My birthday came and went...here's what I got.
$100 in checks
$50 gift card to Regal Cinemas
Law and Order: SVU season 1 DVD set
The Addams Family and Addams Family Values DVD set
Sin City DVD
PC USB 2.0 card
750 GB External Hard Drive

What's everyone up to? I'm working vmix tomorrow and Christmas Day, but I get time and a half for Christmas Day. Actually I'm working vmix for Kylah the whole time she's out of town, which is until Jan 1 or 2 I think. I'm also house sitting for her and her husband and watching all their animals (4 cats and a dog). I'm kinda creeped out because the house isn't in the best of neighborhoods...and I'm worried that when I'm not actually there, someone might try to break in or something. Oh well, hopefully nothing bad happens.

Anyways, I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas and New Years!!!

Hawaii photos, finally.

alabaster911@yahoo.com — Wed, 19 Dec 2007 08:50:40 GMT

Sorry it took so long, but I uploaded all of my Hawaii photos to Flickr.

Here's the link:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/18830395@N02/sets

Let me know if it doesn't work.
Also, I have full size versions of most of these, so let me know if you want a full size version of one of any of these.

Happy Birthday me

alabaster911@yahoo.com — Tue, 18 Dec 2007 03:45:34 GMT

yay.

alabaster911@yahoo.com — Sat, 15 Dec 2007 08:42:23 GMT

This video is so funny.

flying high over yonder

alabaster911@yahoo.com — Sat, 15 Dec 2007 06:26:17 GMT

Tonight is a good night just to sit back and chill. Things have been going pretty good lately, despite being relatively jobless. I guess this is what I would do with myself I could, do nothing all day long. But that isn't going to last long. Job search will be commencing soon. Also, I went back to the Community College today and finished my re-enrollment process. I'll be going onto the website within the next few days to register and sign up for a date and time to choose my classes. Looks like I'll be starting slow and retaking some classes over again. Probably Political Science 120 and possibly Sociology 120. And I also marked my major is Computer Programming, so that is where my focus will go towards in the future.

Hawaii was good. Very beautiful and a great place to relax, and also go on some adventures. Pics tomorrow, I PROMISE.

My birthday is coming up. The 17th to be exact. =)

Hawaii

alabaster911@yahoo.com — Sun, 09 Dec 2007 19:33:05 GMT

To those of you who don't know, I'm in Hawaii right now with my family. Its very nice and we are all having a wonderful time. Also, I quit my job at B&N so I could come on this trip. Probably a bad call on my part...but I was not enjoying that job anymore as it is. I had this trip approved by my old manager and then she left the company, and my new manager told me I could not go on the trip because of the company holiday vacation blackout period. Yeah, it sucks...I was going to just not go, but then I figured I could quit and enjoy the vacation and the holiday season.
Anyways, I'm having a really good time and I'm taking lots of pictures. I'll write more about the trip when I get home on Tuesday. I hope you're all doing ok and those of you with finals going on are not freaking out too much. Good luck with all that, and have a great day.

fun night

alabaster911@yahoo.com — Thu, 06 Dec 2007 01:52:13 GMT

So yesterday was my little baby sister's 18th birthday! I'm so old! Last night we went out to dinner at Corvette Diner, and that place is always fun! It's like a big 50's diner and all the waitresses are really loud and dressed in 50's clothes and they sing and dance and when they come to your table they throw straws at everyone and they also yell at anyone who is using a cell phone. There was a table close to us where they got yelled at TWICE because 2 different guys were caught using their cell phones. The 2nd time our waitress went over and grabbed the guy's phone and was like, "Hi, he's at Corvette Diner right now enjoying dinner, he'll have to call you later!" It was funny! But then later on I noticed the manager was at their table and I guess they were trying to complain...but the manager was basically like, "Too bad, that's what we do here if you don't like it, don't eat here and use your cell phone while you're eating." I thought that was cool. A manager actually growing some balls and telling a customer to fuck off basically. Anyways,
Here's a picture of the pretty house across the street again

Here's my sisters Jenny and Kelly, and then Kelly's boyfriend, Kamron.

Cool Bazooka sign at the restaurant. They throw a bunch of Bazooka gum on your table when they bring you the bill.

That's my cousin Andy, and Jenny again.

Kelly letting our waitress put straws in her hair.

Kelly and Kamron. Straw hair is complete.

Kelly again.

My mom and dad.

Back at home, Kelly's birthday cookie cake! YUM!

And of course, two pictures of Ocho.

Tomorrow morning we're leaving for our trip to Hawaii. I'll probably have internet access while I'm there, but I doubt I'll be on to post in here...maybe to check my email or something. But once I get back I'll definitely post about my trip and post pictures!

perfect dream

alabaster911@yahoo.com — Sat, 01 Dec 2007 18:08:06 GMT

You go to see a movie in your dream, and they give you two sodas instead of one. You sit down to get comfortable and within minutes some random girl sits down next to you and puts her head on your shoulder. Who the fuck is she? I don't know...but mid movie she starts grabbing your junk. Next thing you know you're back at home fucking the shit out of a perfect stranger. Too bad it doesn't happen like that in real life.

Well ok maybe for some people it does.
I have weird dreams.

=/

epic lulz

alabaster911@yahoo.com — Tue, 27 Nov 2007 13:11:41 GMT

So I guess Greenpeace is having an online poll to name some stupid whale.
Over 11,000 names were submitted and they narrowed it down to what they thought were the 30 best names.
Most of them are retarded, such as Aiko ('little love' in Japanese), Libertad ('freedom' in Spanish), and Shanti ('peace' in Hindi)...but the only obvious real choice on the list is to vote for Mister Splashy Pants.
Thanks to OT, and I'm sure a handful of other interweb message boards, I'm proud to report that Mister Splashy Pants is currently leading with 64% of the votes!

So click on the link here and vote for Mister Splashy Pants!!!

http://www.greenpeace.org/international/campaigns/oceans/whaling/great-whale-trail/gwt-vote?utm_sour

la dee da

alabaster911@yahoo.com — Tue, 20 Nov 2007 23:27:11 GMT

Comment on this post and I'll give you a band. Don't worry, I'll make it one you know and love. You put your ten favourite songs by that band on your LJ and in reply to the comment and then challenge others to do the same.

Dearest Ale assigned me Kyuss, so here goes...

1. 50 Million Year Trip
2. Fatso Forgotso
3. Whitewater
4. Un Sandpiper
5. Catamaran
6. Into the Void
7. Space Cadet
8. Gardenia
9. Spaceship Landing
10. One Inch Man

I am sick today. =(